What a weird feeling
To not have caught up with yourself
To not recognize
The new version
Staring back in the mirror
To feel in between worlds
To climb a mountain
And not wait long enough
To notice the view
I’m learning to pause
To feel every inch of joy
Not just pain
To notice the power of good
Not just live in the bad
To really relish feelings
So different
From where I have been
Leaning into new
Without fear
Without pulling back
And retreating into
The dark
To look at my face
To laugh and grin
At its new becoming
I am proud
Proud of the pause
I know now to take
And realize I was always here
Me all along.
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